HAD I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
William Butler Yeats (1865-1939)
起风下雨一天后，膝头脚螺风湿痛发作。我特纳闷，室友的旧患当天就感应到了，我的却要迟到一天。特别是到深夜时，实在令我难以入睡。那是让人无法忘却得，一个等候的功课。记得多年前为赶时间，竟然鲁莽地闯了红灯，撞伤的地方没有痊愈。愿祂forgive the sins of my youth。
不再青春无敌了，猛然发觉心中多了许多的敌人，把自己吓着了。人的路走着走着时，丢弃了一些美好的坚持。就到了一个无人的荒岛里（No Man is an Island, by Thomas Merton）。在这个无人的荒岛里，即是寂静，也是宁静，也是在凝聚着一股力量，以温和承受着这片饱经创伤土地。
We do not prove God’s existence. God reveals His existence by interacting with His creations. How can the created prove the existence of its Creator? Only when the world ceases to exist, then existence of God becomes meaningless, for God is love. The world comes to existence because of love.
The Axiom is God exists, then life is of purpose and meaning. Where God is the starting point. Faith is the midpoint for the relationship between God and man, that connects the creator and the created. Christ is the connecting point. So the faith in Christianity is the faith in Christ – the faith in Christ’s sacrificing love. In Him, lays the secret of balance. Metaphorically, in Him, we find the source of our lives. When we stand firm on the midpoint, we find the highest point of human life – the source where true love flows.
Almost like the hour glass; it is where the nourishment flows. The Above is our source of inspiration. We receive abundances and under some conditions, experiences of ecstasy (fullest of true love), through time.
有些人与事是那么地容易被忘记和取替。今天，日本的地震，海啸和核电泄露，令人忆起20年前俄国的核电爆炸。多少的伤亡及深远的后遗症好像已被人遗忘了。核电是得不偿失，人却偏行己路。
依如《传道书》上说，世事凡是虚空。人生的不圆满，人人得用谦卑去承受这世上的欠缺。Shel Silverstein的“失落的一角”以幽默风趣的形式提醒我去越过对互补的追求，让自己成为一个滚动的圆。心中的窟窿盼望着主的再来。
提问到基督徒苦吗，因为不可纵欲吗？有三：欲望，等候，还有耶稣的苦杯。在这苦苦等候中，我更明白什么是爱。基督耶稣的爱我最终可信靠的。人爱纵然深厚，也无法攀比基督耶稣的爱。人爱深厚广阔，也因时机和选择产生不同的效应。当中是有让人感受痛苦和快乐的。唯有信靠耶稣基督的爱，一切的波动就平缓而平和，然后平安。处事在基督的爱中得力，受圣灵的引领趋向平衡。由于有圣灵的引领，生活就有智慧，不论贫或富，苦或乐，自由身或不自由身。异则仅仅是人受惠的聪明才智，欠缺与造物主双向的互动。
In Christ Alone
In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song
This cornerstone this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease,
My comforter, my all in all,
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in Victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Brought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt in life, no fear in death
There is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand!
All the things that make noise was used to be a nuisance can be fine tuning to a manageable distraction. It is a choice to love the people we come in contact with, in responding to God’s loving calling, for whomever they are and they will become. Being in Solitude meaning that we are able to leave the world as it is and let go to let God perform His miracles. Being in Solitude meaning that we can sit back and relax to immense in the pleasure of uniformity with the cosmos in a small space.
There is a state of lesser self-gratification or less depending on gratification through outside crowd, such not of the mentality of delaying self-gratification, as this practice progress, what spurs out from it is a real contentment.
生死在時間限制以內。既然沒有時間觀念﹐生死概念即是陌生﹐生死就至於度外了。超越時間的限制就超越生與死的限制。
孤單`遺棄`抽離是人生無斷的主題。孤單是因為還在尋找可對話的。成為一個真正成熟的人﹐必須要單單依靠神。這條路是孤單的。
人要敢愛敢恨﹔不敢恨的﹐愛也不敢。愛與恨一起學﹔愛得深﹐恨能深。愛反照出恨來﹔卻不要混擾恨與仇恨。
溺愛讓人活在謊言中。用溺愛來控制而被控制。機緣巧合的事情不是人能控制的。人在自己的份上喜樂足已。
話說過﹐聽的懂了﹐放在心里﹐就是溝通了。良好溝通促進改革(transformation)。聽的不懂﹐再說也是徒勞無益。聽不懂的話會在時間範圍限制里被吊銷。
請製造有伸縮性的yardstick。
It is a December Blue. Dripped rains marked the first day of December. Darkness creep in before 5pm. After long hours of work, I wondered where the day has gone.
Despite the unpleasant facts, there are kindness and understanding to be cherished and remembered, and we are to offer a genuine compassion to people walking along side.
Despite the harsh winter ahead, upon the remembrance of Jesus Christ’s compassion, life seems to be brighter than it appears at 5pm in Ottawa. December in the past years had always been busy, or I would fill my holidays with full schedule at my best in every ways.
“No soldier in active service entangles himself in the affairs of everyday life, so that he may please the one who enlisted him as a soldier.” – 2 Timothy 2:4
Quietly go before the Lord to get de-fragmentation from the everyday life. Grasp on the profound spiritual blessing of Christmas instead on the commercialized season.
“17 But the Lord stood at my side and gave me strength, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. And I was delivered from the lion’s mouth. 18 The Lord will rescue me from every evil attack and will bring me safely to his heavenly kingdom. To him be glory for ever and ever. Amen.” 2 Timothy 4:17-18
Paul’s letter encourages me. Courageous Christians are never really alone while we stand alone even though we don’t try to go it alone. Aloneness and fullness in the Christmas Season.
A friend told me a story. I can re-tell the story here.
There were two disciples. Each disciple has his own master. They like to compare which master is better.
One said, my master has obtained high level of skills and knowledge.
One said, my master sleeps when he is tire, and eat when he is hungry.
Complexity? Confusion? Conflicts? or Crisis?
I stand in awe of You when I search for significance.
What’s the significance of an insignificant life?
The answer lays in the eyes of God, You.
Look into Your gaze (stars/sky), I find my worth. (Psalm 33:6; Psalm 8:3-9)
You are in me and I’m part of You. (John 15:5)
Your Words have so much to offer; I delight in Your teachings. (Psalm 119:47)
You came and show me the way, and such I will follow. (John 14:6; Psalm 119:70))
No achievement is to keep; no failure is to remember.
No chastening of love is too hard to bear. (Hebrew 12:6; Revelation 3:19）
You capture each laugh and tear in Heaven, and You remember.
In Your blossom, Your child will let go of the strongholds.
You are the fortress. (Psalm 31:3)
In Your pleasure, You mold Your child with a renewed character.
You are the potter. (Change My Heart, O God)
(Ottawa River Sunset – Inukshuk)
Who has the creativity as to what formation the cloud shall take? (Psalm 68:1, 4, 8, 33, 34)
Who has the sovereignty as to what direction the wind shall go? (Psalm 78:26; 18:10; 35:5)
I’m standing in awe of You.
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(Psalm 139:1, 23) "O Lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts."
(Ottawa River Sunset – People)
Knowing by Heart 